7/12/2021 - 7/18/2021
7/12/21
drove 10 hours home today!
ruminations on the vacation - follow the laughs and know who in your life is practically permanent. it’s quite nuts how the friends i’ve made are unflappable, even through nuts circumstances.
i mean, there’s not much else to say. with regards to the prompt i posed last week, it’s been good to have a dosage of friends to remind me what my experiences ought to be like. it takes one toxic person to rest that concept from you - and it’s almost for certain if they’re bound to you romantically, involved in all areas of life from inside and out. I totally see how unhealthy relationships stay unhealthy and persist. it’s really quite a sneaky thing.
that aside, kanye’s “yeezus” is definitely the most basic printer record of his whole discography and i quite like it actually. never gave much of a fuck about it but came around to it. i listened to life of pablo when it came out too, that definitely is not as good to me
just excited to wrap up hella errands tomorrow and get settled back into my house to finally get back to music stuff - it’s been ridiculous. will be sharing a song you’ve yet to hear this week!
7/13/2021
Phew. So glad to be done with today. I was so backed up with merch orders while I was on vacation, so I had to get like 20 of them packed up and put into the mail
I also had a call with a realtor today about officially looking at houses. I have no idea if that’s actually my next move or what, but I figure if a great option comes along it’s worth considering. It would be amazing to have a place to have band practices, merch storage, etc. it’s not like this stuff is gonna slow down (at least as long as I have anything to say about it)
Anyway. I went grocery shopping too. Wolo grocery shopping is nice, but it’s also nice with a romantic partner. Idk, always loved doing that.
Ate Thai food and did yoga. I’m so excited to just sleep tonight…so, gonna do that now. Nightly knight 🗡
7/14/2021
had the aaron meeting today and he really thought this song (below) was more or less finished, as do i. I don’t think i’ve shared this once in printerville yet. it was tentatively called sewer strutter and is probably going to end up being called shook & tattered up. but, it might change from that… not sure.
i think it’s probably at 90% done. there are some last minute “wow” factors I need to hone in on
anyways that aside, we worked on that weird little bridge vocal piece of ‘bored, and worse, fine with it’ which was actually a nightmare. ended up moving notes around for a long ass time and settling on…something? I know it’s objectively better because aaron came up with it, but i gotta actually implement it and see how it sits - and maybe move notes around further.
i might buy a fuckin house soon…? scary? been talking to realtors and stuff and it might be a thing soon. really weird. lmao.
anyways, here’s “shook & tattered up”
7/15/2021
woke up too early today, but I tried my best to not let it bother me and I think it worked.
man, i was really feeling the love today. i looked at a house which was technically a multifamily home? like, it was one building but the left side was it’s own house and the right side was its own house. I looked at the right side which had an upstairs room that was not connected to the shared wall. this was crucial because that room could be a practice space, especially if I treated the fuck out of it.
that being said, this was only the first house and I wasn’t totally sold. I also dunno if I’m even gonna buy one…just figure i’ll go down the path until it stops making sense.
in any case, it was nice to envision a future where I have fuckin space. it has really been kneecapping me lately. if i had a whole house where i could set up practices and video shoots easily, i would go off. srsly.
spent 3 hours trying to rig up the tracks playback tech with sal. i think we got somewhere? we made progress. gonna keep hitting it tomorrow until it’s ready to be used.
god, best part of today was how YOU all seemed to come out of the woodwork for some reason and just lay the love on me. i appreciate it so much. these days make me feel like a real real musician.
love you.
7/16/2021
today was nooooot better sleep wise.
i more or less conceded to calling it a rest day. it ended up involving working with sal once again to fine tune this tracks rig into something workable. definitely made good progress there.
i found a house listing that may work for me. it’s very small but i kind of love that??? always been the efficient type. it would be so cool. the interior is so fucked, though. not like, structurally. aesthetically. would have to do some stuff there. i am going to check it out tomorrow…
Ended up watching the latest episode of rick and morty with my roommate and playing resident evil with him as well. everytime i watch that game, i feel like ‘ahhhh i’m slightly at unease the whole time but like it?’ i guess that’s the appeal of horror games (which I never understood). it’s like peeps who dig being scared - why!!! i don’t like the discomfort. people dig thrills though. i do too, i suppose - but i definitely enjoy it under different circumstances.
that all being said, there’s something about resident evil that i clearly like because i keep going back to it. lollerskates
anyway, no new music was worked on today. it’s been a while. with the tracks rig, i’m constantly moving gear in and out of my room so i’m not as ‘ready to go’ as usual. additionally, my music time/energy is spent there and then i’m not entirely in the mood to keep looking at ableton after a few hours of already doing so.
hope i sleep better tonight. i feel like i could end every entry like that, lmao.
7/17/2021
diiiiiidn’t sleep better. hahaha. wtf though.
today i’m looked at that house. man, the inside was rougher than i thought, but i still felt pumped about it. idk what it is about that house. i ended up looking at another one after that that was much ‘nicer’ and it totally didn’t feel right.
thinking back now, it makes total sense in a way that i’d like the more fixer-upper house that’s ‘too small’. there’s more clarity that i can make it my own and keep working within limitations, which has always been a bp mantra. on that point - i don’t have like 89 synthesizers. i really only use 3 main ones. ya know? the project has kind of been “try to go as over the top as possible with the few tools you have.” that was how the whole project started. it took aaron for me to see i could have crazier options, which explains fantastic wrists’s sound a bit…
after that sal and i completed the tracks rig programming. it’s kind of insane how it works - you plug in two computers running the same session and then all of your ‘controller’s automatically control both computers simultaneously. they start playing the same tracks. if you unplug the main computer, the system automatically switches it to the other computer and you don’t even hear the rig hesitate to move the whole system to the other computer. it’s called a failsafe, failover, or ‘redundancy’ rig. so cool
did yoga and then went to a roommate’s comedy show which was quite funny. went home and my other roommate played resident evil and we got very close to the end. we just have to beat the final boss.
very tired. night night
7/18/2021
so that house - i put in an offer. and apparently it’s getting taken seriously?? honestly did not expect this. i’m settling into the concept of having my own spot. i don’t want to get too invested because it could very likely fall through. but, kinda crazy. all sorts of phonecalls today.
put in twenty three orders in the mail today - thank you all - insane. grocery shopped and then drove by my fucking ex once again. saw her outside and we caught eyes. motivated me to keep moving into this house because that would not happen as much anymore, if at all
went to get pizza and a drink with an old friend who used to be more than friends. honestly so nice? interesting time.
went to graci’s after for dinner, cigars, rice krispie treats and wine. such a good time. she lives with the realtor - it’s her friend - and the realtor reaffirmed that the offer was going well
i’m so tired! so many nights of imperfect sleep. it’s later than I’d like it to be. i really hope tonight is good…see, told you i’d end every entry like that.
thanks for helping make a house financially viable. lmao. i don’t make any profit on basic printer yet, but it’s grown to a point where i lose way more than i used to and i’ve been able to save as a result. i appreciate it so much. life’s work.