10/18/2021 - 10/24/2021
10/18/21
finally had a wide open night of music making.
i worked more on ‘cravin’’ which has so much potential, i just i hope I reach it. I always get stuck on finding one good section and then not knowing how to to attach other pieces to it. definitely the case here. personally i just wanna sit on the chorus groove forever, which i guess people have liked in the past, haha…good weird, smoke and scowl, hard look, and tetris all are based on extended, fairly unchanging grooves, and they’re probs my most popular songs. so, maybe i oughta just do what feels right.
that aside, i tried some basic synth timbres for ‘i’ll be the one to leave’. what it is feels very straightforward - kind of the obvious tone choices for a song with this sentiment, i guess you could say. I want to put some acoustic guitar in there too, i’m just not entirely sure what feel it should all have. lately, i’ve been having fun trying to intentionally push the vibe of the song in a diff direction as a challenge. in fact, cravin’ started as a pretty plodding morose thing before i shoved it into upbeat stanky synth funk. maybe that’s the mantra of this record, i also did that with patient role. at first it was extremely sleepy.
think i just learned something, lmao.
anyway, both of those songs have updated bounces, so enjoy. linked them in the text above.
10/19/2021
tonight i decided to try to finally wrap up this music room, because i’ve had paintings and pictures laying around forever - and boxes full of loose stuff.
i realized i kept putting it off but there was never really going to be a good time to do it, and i felt inspired to do it, so i may as well lean into it.
also feeling a touch sick today, so doing some basic manual tasks sounded fine to me. I ended up putting up three paintings and this funny collage my sister made me as a house warming gift.
then, i tried to install my wall guitar hangers, but i don’t have a drill. so i bored two shitty holes into my wall and it’s not deep enough, and now the two holes in my wall are just stressing me out. lmao. need to get a drill bit but wanting to wait 2 days for my credit card statement period to flip.
anyway, nighty
10/20/2021
man, definitely feeling sick. nose wont stop running, scratchy throat, sneezing every 5 mins. it’s not the worst but it’s just, definitively “i’m sick” energy. sucks but can work with it. also a little hazy.
for today, i just wanted to put a bassline on what I initially am calling ‘dope seapunk’. lmfao. that name will def change. you should google seapunk.
i feel pretty good about the direction of this song, with it being like a <3 min beat based thing. i love when i discover something like that and have security in it. usually i’m always second guessing and thinking there’s gotta be some clear chord progression or a bridge or something. pumped to find vocals for it and just go ham on productionnnn
10/21/2021
i was so sick today, and I slept like shit. Decided to just call it a day really. I didn’t think this was Covid but I got a test anyway that came negative, so that was good.
managed to sneak a nap in which helped, and then actually by the end of the day, I felt juuuuuust good enough to go to graci’s show. It was definitely a stretch, but I was negative and she really needed the support. Was glad I could rally.
that aside, I started squid game. Hooked
10/22/2021
Feeling significantly better today. Tbh my plan was to do some music stuff and then yoga, but I got caught up binging squid game and finishing it. I definitely enjoyed it! The vibe is so particular, almost like Stanley cubrick meets Saw or something.
did yoga as well, was glad I felt well enough to make it happen. Tomorrow I’m going to memphis with Graci and Michael. It’s been on the calendar forever, but we’re literally going just to get lunch with a friend and then spend hours in IKEA. Been pumped about it for a while and can’t wait to tell ya about it…
10/23/2021
i
love
ikea.
holy shit. I left there with an end table, stereo unit, night stand, dresser, bath mat, chair cushions, welcome mat, and stuffed animal named kanyee west. Cause he’s a stegosaurus that looks like the dinosaur from that yee meme.
ikea itself was so indulgent and fun but it was the constant riffing amongst me and Michael and Graci that made it such an endless delight. Lunch with out friend Shae was so light and awesome too. Life is about such simple shit. I wasn’t once thinking about all the stuff i had to do or goals I wanted to reach, I was just laughing and enjoying experiences. I gotta always remember to lean into these moments.
10/24/2021
man I wish i had anything interesting to say here, but today was literally chores all day. I did errands with Michael, mowed his lawn, and then went home and assembled my IKEA shit for the whole rest of the day. It was honestly so nice. That’s the other thing about IKEA, I actually like building the stuff and it extends the experience. Why am I such a consumerist cuck for IKEA??? Shameless