Unadulterated Shame

Naomi told me that casual is okay

So I support you if you wanna have a good lay

during the start of the ‘me too’ movement i picked up ‘the beauty myth’ by naomi wolf to try to check myself. i recall hearing my ex tell me of other guys she’s been with and how that made me feel given my new knowledge.

That doesn’t mean I like envisioning it atop

your bed in Pittsburgh

Despite my modern art i cannot wrinkle bed sheets

Even though Kira likens me to S. Dali

my dear friend kira hooks, a musician and photographer, took the pictures for my “good weird” release cycle. she said I reminded her of salvador dali and so we went that direction with the photoshoot, as you can sort of see here.

That soft desert will be abandoned by this nomad,

Oases sour

“kid would kill to sleep in deserts, soft and wrinkled somehow.” - a reference to an older song about her and her bed. also, i used to play a bunch of acoustic shows for basic printer around the time of this record.

Avoiding every urge to think of you and feel it,

I’ll block your channels and still quiver at the thought of it

I’ll try replacing you with every single girl that

the internet’s got

Likely smarter, better versed in Hemingway’s shit

Bobby D’s old strain will hover over all of it

she was an avid reader, writer, poet, and painter. i felt so stupid compared to her. i’m imagining the theoretical guy she’s sleeping with now to be on a similar calibur.

I know i said i don’t enjoy envisioning this but like a car crash i just can’t stop