Scenes From an Ivy league College Promising, Delicate17 & the light was auburn as a synesthete, ‘auburn’ for me often means soft, sentimental, loving You Took my hand, Scarf and all, Vulvaic thoughts, taught me dylan’s wisdomThrough Your poems bob dylan was this girl’s idol. i don’t think i’d heard a single bob dylan song before our relationship - it felt like a totally different world full of sentiments that exemplified her state of being. i didn’t always ‘feel’ dylan’s messages,, but i still found it found really endearing. Patience, PatiencePorcelain, made of ivory skinYour brain Was strangeI’d say Not sane to be clear - ‘sane’ is not to say she was disturbed or unreasonable - it’s used colloquially here to reference that she struggled with finding a mental ease (and who doesn’t struggle with that?). As a 17 year old kid, this can be a lot to deal with for both sides of a relationship. Softened purrsContented sighsIn my silence I knew you were wise althoughIt seemedI couldn’t cherish it All her watercolored illnessesThey will leave her body ‘til I’m sick insteadAll her thoughts and all her ideas They will be my ivy league until I’m dead Cornell university is where a lot of this relationship took place. spent a decent amount of time here… Saw me off Through the snow While Meloy separated us both, Goodbye as i backed out of the parking lot to return home one visit, she stood in the snow holding back tears. this decemberists song came on in my car stereo - a song about two lovers drowning moments after being wed. Troublesome, Thoughtlessness.Honeyed bread right upon your bedding - Sweet, Complete these simple, couple-y pleasures were absolute bliss - but i couldn’t see their worth at all, as i was in a world of ambivalence at best - jealousy and bitterness at worst. Jealousy: Horrid thing.Kammerman as a gritty symbol on one trip to ithaca, i was surprised to find my classmate ‘kammerman’ also visiting. he was someone i found to be braver than i. he had grit i lacked. he was a symbol of what to be jealous of. Scent You made - It Burned My brain never forget the scent of grapeseed oil + burt’s bees. she had a specific scent. I’ve only smelled something like it one other time, and it nearly made me cry. Ithaca, Ithaca: Land of roofs, land of books and sun and her, And us, And the bitter end ithaca has always been a magical, intoxicating place for me. having a pivotal relationship occur there was extremely potent. All her watercolored illnessesThey will leave her body ‘til I’m sick insteadAll her thoughts and all her ideasThey will be my ivy league until I’m dead I wander through the leavesDefeated, no release at allA wound is underneathSoftened peacoat threads,Hairs upon my head a callback to this wound: “the knife that’s stuck in myself, i hide it, yeah, i’m bleeding” Detritus for my seedsStill waiting for a tree to growA decade behind meIn an auburngladeThere’s no lack of shadeWhen the sun’s an opaque dot October is a tease - A pretty, preppy equinox. But in reality: An uncaring void, Memories of joy caged behind a regal lock fun fact, this was the first lyric written for this song, and this is the ledge where i wrote it on 10/15/2018. i had no idea it would be the precipice for this entire song. back to lore page Annotated LyricsJesse GillenwaltersOctober 18, 2020Ithaca Facebook0 Twitter LinkedIn0 Reddit Tumblr Pinterest0 0 Likes